Wednesday, April 16, 2008

My head hurts

Some days you just think a lot.

I've been watching this show called "the Waltons" quite a lot lately, and it's filled with touching stories from the everyday life of a fictional family in the depression. The series was produced in the 1970's, so I guess it must have been created by a fellow (or felless?) who yearned for the old times. The bad ol' days, as my Law teacher fondly calls them.

Along with watching this show, reading Maclean's magazine, talking to people about what I want to do, and thinking about it all, that just adds up to a lot of thinking. (and you're thinking, "Your point is...?)

I travelled with my leadership class to a great place called Camp Thunderbird this past weekend to, well, basically blow off some steam. Through the three days and two nights we challenge ourselves as a group and individuals with physical challenges like the Giant's Ladder and some hard core rock climbing. (Well, I mean, h-core by MY limited standards) And I think that after perservering through these activities and talking about what I want to do with my life afterwards, I've come to a realization.

If you want anything in life, you have to pursue it. You have to reaallly want it, want it enough to pull yourself up those next few inches to get that good grip with your left hand, or send out that email just one more time to see if the bigshot in the media or in parliament will grace you with a response. You have to organize, communicate, and have the will to succeed, or you just won't acheive what you want to acheive.

I think that too often these days our standards are set so low. Whatever happened to values like integrity and trust? Have they been greased by the coloured paper that changes hands like water flows in a stream these days? Spoiled somehow?

Call me old-fashioned, but I think that these values, virtues are far to important to be a thing of the past. Virtues may change, but the one thing that remains constant is that there will always be people, and there are ways that one should treat others. Respect, dignity.

These values, I believe, are key to true success. Your goal may vary, but the philosophy for getting there is always the same. Hard work.

Because if you end up getting there as a stowaway on the train instead of a passenger first class, you'll never be able to feel that glow on your heart and the tingle in your spine that comes from doing it the right way.

Of course, there may be more than one right way to do something. Just make sure it is one before you do it.

Great. Now my head feels worse.



World Peace
Jordan

Sunday, April 6, 2008

A Poem

Deep Thoughts

What is reality?

You watch movies like "The Matrix"
And read the musings of old greeks like PLato
And you wonder what is real.
The air you breathe,
The water you drink,
The food you eat.
Maybe it's all a sham.
Do you know for real?
What proof do you have?

What is proof?

Some kind of evidence that you can nod to,
Grunt,
And say it's a sign of this or that?
You think that paper you're reading is from trees?
And it's ink from wherever ink comes from?
Don't you find it interesting that
When it comes down to the subatomic level,
Atoms are made up mostly of empty space?

Your thoughts,
Are you free to think them,
Or is it all just a script in Act III of the play
Written by, Who Knows
And the feelings you have
Aren't they just created by chemicals and electricity?
What is your conciousness?

What is life?

Ask that big computer.
It doesn't know.
So why should I?
Don't ask me, ask them.
They don't know either
They'll just say the same thing,
"Ask someone else."

And are you really alive
Or are you just a bunch of little particles coming together by conicidence
And sparking once before snuffing themselves out,
Sot the universe can move on.
If there is one, that is.
Some people think they know what reality is.
I wonder if those people are even real.
Am I scaring you?
How do you know if you're even afraid?

What is fear?

All of this said,
The world spins madly on.
And you can't deny the fact
That SOMETHING is happening.

But what?

That's a question I'm going to leave for you.
I'm going to leave it, for you to answer yourself.

Because I don't know.

The phenomenon that we call life,
Lurches through something like time,
Space,
Both,
Neither.

Why don't you look out the window,
And see where your life is headed?



World Peace
Jordan

Procrastination - Random Thoughts to Keep Me From Actually Working

Well, I guess it's just one of those days.

I can't seem to keep myself focused, and I want to be doing work, but at the same time I don't. I don't even remember what kind of things I'm supposed to be doing! I don't want to think that hard right now.

So, how about them Canucks?

They totally tanked. They had a chance to make the playoffs and they blew it. Those Orcas just sprayed some hot air at the Edmonton Oilers along with a little bit of good ol' fashioned ocean spray, and it failed to get past Dwayne Roloson, the old guy who's destined to be a backup goalie for... like forever. The playoff game was on the line, and this fossil stone-walled them. Maybe our guys in blue and green should go work on their golf swings with him at the Tyrell Museum. Yeesh.

But anyways, my favorite players have made it to the playoffs. Jean-Sebastian Giguere? He and his Ducks made it. They didn't win Pacific, but that's not as easy as it used to be. Paul Stastny? Thanks to the fantastic returns of Peter Forsberg and Adam Foote (more so the former than the latter), along with the continued strong play by returned injurees (is that a word?) Joe Sakic, Paul Stastny, and that dude from Edmonton, the Avalanche as buried the competition (sorry, couldn't resist) and swept into the playoffs in nothing less than sixth place. Take that, Calgary.

But enough hockey talk. I was just looking at the fees that I'm going to have to pay to got to Queen's University. Not TOO bad, considering how much my buddy has to pay to get into the commerce program. $10,000 a year! No wonder it's the best business program in Canada. The students get to play around with real money! Res fees don't look too bad, $4600 for me and my friend to room and board at that fine Kingston institution. It's better than a poke in the eye with a sharp stick I guess. ;)

Well, I think that the only answer to getting over this incredible urge to do NOTHING is to write on my blog (check), play a computer game (Can Do, just like our nuclear reactors!..... never mind...), and eat some food with my family..... or just by myself. Who knows. Anyways, lets go work on number two option to get rid of procrastination!



World Peace
Jordan